A violent assault led to my first near death experience when I was four years old. This is not something I like to talk about, but I feel I need to share it to garner greater clarity on the nature of existence and what it means to die, go out of body, astrally project, meet your guides, make a decision to live or die.
I recovered these memories under hypnosis. I had blocked them for over 40 years when they finally emerged. I fully processed this horrendous experience and it took several years to fully process it and reintegrate my subpersonalities and reclaim the lost pieces of my soul. I’ll never forget now that my blocked memories have emerged.
I learned by working with clients and through reflection of my own experiences that I have been selected. Who is doing this selecting and for what reasons?
My friend, Stewart Swerdlow who was in the Montauk Program said, “……………………….”
This technique of shattering a child with trauma is part of what “the government” does to fracture children so that they are more psychic and can be used in their programs.
I have been a part of the alien abduction program that probably started with the agreement that was made back in 1954 between Eisenhower and the aliens who met with him at Holoman Air Force base. But I could be part of something even more ancient, going back to pre-WWII or perhaps as far back as the Anunnaki.
What I do know is while the ETs and humans have a protocol that they enact with humans that are abducted and pulled into their programs, I was not what they expected and so I am not in their “normal” program. I am not a normal human soul. I am an ancient being aware of my multidimensional existence. I agreed to come into the veil to experience my humanity, but when I’m on board ship or on other planets, the veil drops and I am my eternal self. The extraterrestrial program only works on souls that are unaware of their role in the continuum. Most are fully immersed in the matrix. I am conscious.
In the spring of 1958, I teleported up to the Mothership Vimana where I was greeted as the eternal being that I am. While my form was that of a small child, I interacted with the ETs as my eternal being. Then as per my agreement with existence, I returned to Earth and agreed to suppress my memories for several reasons.
First I could not fully enjoy the experience of life if I knew it all.
Second, if I remembered everything, beings who should not know where I am could detect me and ruin my mission as they can fully read minds.
Third, I was on a mission of learning and discovery and had to be in the mystery to reach my goals and undercover things that were hidden.
I had to die so I could have my experience where I died and uncovered more information. I’m struggling for words. I am getting that I had to die and thus that means that the characters in the next scene were manipulated to act the way they did. Or perhaps they had it within themselves to act how they did. Or maybe they would have never acted the way they did unless the circumstances were set up to proceed exactly as they did. Maybe it’s just a case of the right thing at the right time in the right place. But somehow I and they and all the characters involved agreed before I came into form and also agreed in that moment for everything to align in perfect form and configuration for what happened.
grok
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Definition of grok
transitive verb: to understand profoundly and intuitivelySynonyms & AntonymsDid You Know?Example SentencesLearn More about grok
Synonyms & Antonyms for grok
Synonyms
- appreciate,
- apprehend,
- assimilate,
- behold,
- catch,
- catch on (to),
- cognize,
- compass,
- comprehend,
- conceive,
- cotton (to or on to),
- decipher,
- decode,
- dig,
- discern,
- get,
- grasp,
- intuit,
- know,
- make,
- make out,
- perceive,
- recognize,
- register,
- savvy,
- see,
- seize,
- sense,
- tumble (to),
- twig,
- understand
Antonyms
Did You Know?
Grok may be the only English word that derives from Martian. Yes, we do mean the language of the planet Mars. No, we’re not getting spacey; we’ve just ventured into the realm of science fiction. “Grok” was introduced in Robert A. Heinlein’s 1961 science fiction novel Stranger in a Strange Land. The book’s main character, Valentine Michael Smith, is a Martian-raised human who comes to earth as an adult, bringing with him words from his native tongue and a unique perspective on the strange, strange ways of earthlings. “Grok” was quickly adopted by the youth culture of America and has since peppered the vernacular of those who grok it, from the hippies of the ’60s to the computerniks of the ’90s.
Examples of grok in a Sentence
the eternal struggle of the human race to grok its place in the grand scheme of the universeRecent Examples on the WebThe goal of this information-gathering effort is to grok the scale and scope of the problem, as well as potential solutions.— Megan Molteni, Wired, “A Global Data Effort Probes Whether Covid Causes Diabetes,” 7 Oct. 2020The researchers’ pitch is really about ease of use for policymakers: rather than sifting through piles of scientific studies evaluating esoteric variables, the knobs that dial in this price are pretty easy to grok.— Scott K. Johnson, Ars Technica, “New carbon price focuses on results you want, not impacts you don’t,” 18 Aug. 2020
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First Known Use of grok
1961, in the meaning defined above
History and Etymology for grok
coined by Robert A. Heinlein †1988 American author
