PRE-BIRTH, EARLY CONTACT & PARANORMAL EXPERIENCES
1 to 2 years old (1954 to 1956)
In the in-between life, I selected my current parents and siblings from my soul family. We, humans, tend to reincarnate together frequently but not every lifetime. My parents were part of an outer circle soul group, not the innermost with whom I had most of my incarnations. I did feel an alliance with my father. So perhaps he was in my soul group. But my mother was both my friend and my enemy. She tried to kill me many times. So perhaps she too was in my soul group, but my reluctance to admit her into my inner circle came from our interactions in this lifetime, which were at times brutal and other times sweet. Mom was a very mixed bag. I’ll bookmark my relationship with Mom for a while and attempt to figure it out later with my therapist.
My husband is my therapist. Highly skilled, he helped me recover the lost pieces of my soul and become more conscious and centered, aware of the divine perfection of the dynamics of all my relationships and how they define and educate me.
Because of a crazy mother and other things that happened in the course of my life, I died eight times and came back (obviously). What I learned from constantly dying then being revived (or reviving myself) is that in our many lifetimes we rotate our roles, sometimes lovers, sometimes parents, children, bosses, servants and in many other configurations and work out lessons and karma and the like designed for growth.
The final goal for souls is enlightenment, and the process of how we break out of the slave system of birth, death, afterlife, and rebirth. The system is like a hamster wheel and we feel trapped running around on it. After hundreds if not thousands of incarnations, most want off the ride. Few escape, but like Christ, some manage to do so and move on to higher realms outside of three-dimensional physicality. Some escape and come back to help the others. All define who we are in the divine plan.
I’m an ancient soul whose planet of origin is not the Earth. My soul essence primarily originated on Nibiru, but that’s just one level of my soul’s existence. I have threads going back to God-Source itself where I am known as “Joy” at the Godhead level and I “reside at the right-hand side of God at the 39-degree mark”, (so we joke).
We are all multi-dimensional souls simultaneously existing on many worlds, planes, planets, dimensions, vibratory frequencies and levels of existence. As our souls learn, grow and evolve we become aware of the true nature of existence and our roles in the Universe(s). Existence is endless. We focus on where we are as being everywhere is impossible when you enter and avatar in the lower planes with an agreement that you go unconscious and experience extreme amnesia.
More advanced and older entities can simultaneously recall and maintain many lifetimes. Older, more advanced souls can juggle more and more incarnations. When you have more than one incarnation at a time you can accelerate your growth and evolution.
The human mind has no way to conceive the highest levels of creation from this human perspective. This is the best explanation we can provide to our Janet Avatar as her mind has limited holding capacity due to its size and the influences of this Earth dimension and vibratory frequencies. Eternally connected to GodSource and the supercomputer of divine consciousness, Janet only needs to focus on accessing all wisdom and knowledge ever gained and forever held in the Akashic Records to accelerate, learn, grow and evolve.
Most times, the noise and cacophony of human life drown out-thought and creativity. That’s why frequently Janet can only access higher levels when she sleeps or meditates. Add interference from those who wish to keep humans individually and collectively dummied down, it’s a wonder anything ever gets created or accomplished at all.
But humans are resilient and quite magical, and despite those who would thwart our efforts and enslave us forever, there are those among us who persevere.
While in the in-between plane of existence, I had many human avatar models to choose from for my next incarnation. I took my time and tried on the Janet model before making my final decision then I returned to Earth on February 6 of 1954. I was impatient and did not stay in that body much, zooming in between to other incarnations in which I simultaneously exist while the infant Janet slept. Even when she was active and animated, it took so little to animate a tiny human form before verbal articulation that I was only partially there.
I am talented at multiplexing and balancing contemporary lives and existences on many planets, planes, and vibratory frequencies and continue that practice to this day. My conscious mind can be fully engaged while other parts do other lives, but primarily I move into my other lives during sleep, meditation, and daydreams. We all do this to agree, but old souls do it more often and with greater complexity.
I was born remembering much from previous lives and the realm in-between lives. I’ve done a lot of therapy and past life regression to recall additional memories, both from this life and from other lives in between my human lives and on other worlds and dimensions. Once I began the process my dreams continued and more information begins to emerge. Sometimes I’m doing something simple, like taking a shower, washing dishes, and other memories start emerging, filling in gaps. I journal to keep a record of these thoughts and memories. It’s an ongoing process and I enjoy it. Meanwhile, I meet others with shared memories or similar experiences and we encourage one another to remember, move past our blocks and recall the totality of our existences.
PREVIOUS INCARNATIONS
My previous incarnation was also in the United States, where I was male, lived in the Northeastern part of the country and was a drummer boy in the Civil War. My current avatar is related to Lincoln’s Secretary of the Navy, Gideon Wells and I believe the young drummer boy was also somehow genetically related to Wells or someone in Lincoln’s cabinet as I was there during Lincoln’s death vigil.
During a meditation/regression I recovered a memory where I was sitting under a desk with at least one other young boy playing with painted metal toy soldiers when I looked up and saw Lincoln’s soul exit his body. I glanced around at all the others in the room and saw that no one else had seen his soul departing. Soon after the doctor declared Lincoln was dead.
I was deeply affected by this event. As a child incarnated in Janet’s body, I felt drawn to read books featuring Lincoln. My mother was as well, but I’m not sure who she was during that time. When we were alone often she would get out her book on Lincoln’s life and share it with me. It was one of her treasures, and I was instructed to handle it with care. She explained that her great uncle was the Secretary of the Navy, Gideon Wells.
Later I came to realize the full significance of what my relationship with Gideon meant. But as a child, I only knew I was to pay attention and remember because things like past lives, soul connections, and genetics are pieces of my puzzle. I assemble the mystery of my existence through finding, recognizing, and putting together those pieces of my giant jigsaw puzzle throughout time and this life and my concurrent lives to see the bigger picture.
Fast forward to this time and incarnation where I met a female friend when I was 15 and Marion was 16. When we met I felt compelled to share several I remembered. I came into my human form remembering several pastlives. I remembered being a young, athletic man who died after being chased to the Bastille where he fell to his death. I also remember being a young man in a gazebo by a stream and a weeping willow tree with my beautiful wife who wore a long, white dress with colorful yellow ribbons. The meadow around us was full of yellow wildflowers. We had three children, two girls and the youngest a boy.
Years after our sharing when she got married, had children and moved to another state, Marion writes to me to inform me that she remembered that was my wife in that lifetime and that she clearly remembers that she was deeply affected by my early demise.
I felt strange hearing her memory, yet at the same time, my soul knew she spoke the truth. How is it that in one lifetime humans may be intimately and intensely involved as a man loving a woman, and the very next time we’re reuniting as friends with no sexual or romantic attraction to one another? Or did that revelation mean that I should have felt passionate emotions rather than the friendship I felt? I moved on from those thoughts as she was now monogamously married and had several children. I too was monogamously married, and I directed all my romantic and sexual feelings towards my husband. But I was left with uneasy feelings and more questions than answers. I felt blessed that I was open-minded and knew that sometime all would make sense and that for now, I had to be ok with the mystery and the journey.
I’m an ancient soul whose planet of origin is not the Earth. My soul essence primarily originated on Nibiru but that’s just one level of my soul’s existence. I have threads going all the way back to God-Source itself where I am known as “Joy” at the Godhead level and I “reside at the right hand side of God at the 39 degree mark”, (so we joke). The human mind has no way to conceive the highest levels of creation from this perspective, so this is the best explanation we can provide to our Janet Avatar as her mind is limited due to the influences of this Earth dimension and vibratory frequencies.
While in the in-between plane of existence, I had many human avatar models to choose from for my next incarnation. I took my time and tried on the Janet model before making my final decision then I returned to Earth on February 6 of 1954. I was impatient and did not stay in that body much, zooming in between to other incarnations in which I simultaneously exist while the infant Janet slept. Even when she was active and animated, it took so little to animate a tiny human form before verbal articulation that I was only partially there.
I am talented at multiplexing and balancing simultaneous lives and existences on many planets, planes and vibratory frequencies and continue that practice to this day. My conscious mind can be fully engaged while other parts do other lives, but primarily I move into my other lives during sleep, meditation and daydreams. We all do to a agree, but old souls do it more often and with greater complexity.
I grew up and became a husband and father and had three children, two boys, and a girl. I remember crossing a field of daisies to meet my wife and children who had gathered at a white gazebo beside a weeping willow on the banks of a pond graced with two giant white swans, their two babies, and several ducks and geese. While that moment in time symbolized an idyllic life, it ended too soon. I flash-forwarded in time to my wife putting flowers on my grave. I’m not sure how I died, but if I had been a child at the time of Lincoln, perhaps I was killed at a later war.
Fast forward to this time and incarnation where I met a female friend when I’m 15 and she was about a year older and for some reason I’m compelled to share with her stories about several lifetimes I recalled. Years after our sharing when she got married, had children and moved to another state, Marion writes to me to inform me that she was my wife in that lifetime and that clearly remembers that she was saddened at my early demise.
I felt strange hearing her memory, yet at the same time my soul knew she spoke the truth. How is it one lifetime we can be intimately and intensely involved as a man loving a woman, and the very next time we’re reuniting as friends with no sexual or romantic attraction to one another? Or did that revelation mean that I should have some kind of attraction more than the friendship I felt? I moved on from those thoughts as she was now monogamously married and had several children. I too was monogamously married and my romantic and sexual feelings were directed towards my husband. But I was left with uneasy feelings and more questions than answers. I felt blessed that I was open-minded and knew that sometime all would make sense and that for now I had to be ok with the mystery and the journey.
